if you were loyal to me, actually loved me i would have ended it differently. you gave me a way out so i had to burn my bridge with you while i had the opportunity. your love was toxic but i loved it. i loved to die with you. how unhealthy is that? i had to gain me back. i had to get me back
in life i’ve had many struggles, however i’ve always persevered & grew. recently i’ve been struggling financially. lost a few people i thought had ma back. people i thought were down for me like i was down for them in similar situations or worse. i’m not upset by it. it doesn’t anger me. i just see it as me findin out who is really for me. who really was real. who was strong & down. i won’t be down for too much longer. i feel my time coming. in that retrospect i believe i’ve found a seed of peace and as long as i hold onto it, it’ll continue to grow and my level of peace will be above average
"I really love you yo, & ima tell you why:
Today begins my 100 days!!!!
My last relationship taught me to be more verbally supportive than I am bashful. At one time in my relationship I forgot to encourage, and say “babe I see you trying, babe I see you taking care of us, babe thank you”. I thought the support in passions and pushing to reach goals was enough however it wasn’t balanced. I’m sure I’ll continue to learn from that relationship to improve from. I hope you will too.
100 days 100 days 100 days!!! TURN UP!!!!
i did a lot of growing & i’m excited from where i came from but i’m more excited about where i’m going.
| Word of the day | I am in awe of the things that have been revealed to me today. I am abundantly thankful & humbled. I am overjoyed. Today someone else could have taken it negatively, however I took it as an eye opener, an open door, and a lesson/message. The only thing I can relate back to you from my experience is if you truly believe in something fight, hold on, go after it and be open for the lessons you will learn about yourself in the process. Growth is the game. You will mess up, the key tho is how you recover from it. 💜💋✌️
Lately I’ve been talking to black men about how they feel about me cutting my hair (my hair was mid length and i cut it to an inch off my skull), for entertainment, and they have said they don’t appreciate me cutting it because so many black women don’t have long hair of their own & wear it out….
It’s a shame black men really believe this. Who are ya’ll looking at. Many of my black friends and family members have long hair that is theirs that they show off. Some of them also like to wear weave to protect the hair they do have from damage from doin it so often. There are tons of women with long dreads, braids, twists, straight, and curly hair around me and I honestly don’t know where ya’ll get this stigma from that black women don’t have hair or it’s hard for them to grow hair…
tonight was beautiful. i’m so glad i went.
(to an open mic at rider university)
i was so nervous. i’m now more inspired to write more. i’m so excited. i got so much support from people i don’t even know; new faces & acquaintances.
now i’m going to find an open mic at temple (my school) & see how that’s going
a bit about me
you can run from things in your life, but eventually you’ll get tired and your issues and bothersome things will grow faster and catch up to you. The question is, would you rather deal with the things you are running from now and get it over with, or later?
i am in love with the beach
the sky is ma boo
scenery is my side
i post a lot of beyonce and jay
i am fifth year senior at temple
i graduate in january
i am a sucka fa love
i am a hair fanatic (growth, figuring it out)
i have aspirations of being a vegetarian or eating organic meats
i can’t cook but i can bake
i can’t stay up all night like i used to four years ago -_- but im only 23
i love my body but
realization: i have a really hard time letting go of things, even of the things that harm me. it’s weird because i literally know there is no reason for me to still have this attachment yet i keep finding my way back. it’s ridiculous. it’s embarrassing. it’s harmful to my personal growth and success in all areas in my life.
goal: find some way to let go and stay away
i struggle with the acceptance of how skinny i am. i can look in the mirror at my house with half of my clothes on and say “yes girl you’ve got it” and then when i go to the gym and catch a glimpse of myself in those huge mirrors i’m just like “omg you are so skinny child”. now some of this can be the difference in the clothes i am wearing. I just find myself at times to be a bit awkward. i’m not saying i would like to gain weight. i love my body i just wish my perception of it would stay the same. i truly believe i was a bit more muscular when i was in high school. i played field hockey and basketball and i know what my body used to look like. i also gained the freshman 15 so i was a bit thicker. but recently i’ve lost weight and i’m having to deal with learning how to accept that i’m skinnier than i was five years ago… it’s a challenge but i’m slowly accepting it. it’s not like i look in the mirror like “ew you are too skinny” i just look in the mirror and say “wow” and recognize that i’m noticing a change :/
it’s 1:11pm and i’m thinkin bout alcohol… not tryna get drunk, i just want some… possibly just a buzz at the most